courage and love

courage and love

i feel like this two words like to appear in my life once a while and disappear for a long time

its not that i'm jealous on others or everything

as you can see

its clear

i'm always giving all my attention onto you all

but what do i get?

it just a 'oh ya' 'erm'

why i always care

i always put you all at the upmost of my life

the most important thing

when ever i go anywhere doing anything

the first thing i consider is you all

but you all never know

still like to blame me scold me critics on me

am i doing anything wrong?

just a little thing

you all like to repeat and repeat stare at me

i just talk back a little

you all treat me like enemies

i asked myself for so many times

am i doing too good?

is it 'the thing you never have will be treasures the most?'

i confuse

do i have to start not treating anyone good anymore?

whatever i say to you alllllllllll is just rubbish

i need love and care

then comes the courage

yes we can...

yesterday...the last day for school-ing...
cause next time we back is for exam period...
for the few nights..
i really think a lot..
thinking of what to do..what happen for the past few years..
but things gonna happen...
i'll leave my school and my friends soon...
this year...
i really feel that the strength between my classmates and friends..
maybe this is the last year for us to gather together..
we try our best to give ourselves a great memory..
we try to do something...
play football together...wearing masks together...makan together...
it really good...
i never thought that our class have such teamwork when i first in the class...
so....
yesterday...
great day...
pn cheah gave me a book....the book quite interesting actually...
i must read it de...
for me...pn cheah is more like a friend than a teacher...
i used to talk to her my story and like to help her....
dunno why...i just like to do it...
pn cheah...last time i promised to you when you retire...i must attend your majlis...
i will do what i promise...
emm....we can't pj yesterday...urghhhh....
but they curi play too...
after reces...we eat junk food in the exam hall...
then chat and took pics around the hall...
before back....
we grouped the 5s1 classmates..
we sang some songs...
some of us cried...
we really miss the time we be together...
really......
then we have a group hug....
wishing all of us have good result...
although other class is watching on us..
but we not bother what they think...
we just be ourselves...
i'll remember you all no matter where am i...
last wish...
hope you all have good health and good results...

HaPpy bIRthdaY tO m3 =)

yesterday...i purposely force myself not to sleep before 12...
cause i knew that that is a respect to ppl who send you wishes at 12..
haha...i received few wishing msg at 12...
but one msg really kena one of my birthday wishes...
that is tze pei de wishes...
that is...
ppl who know will definitely know...
haha..
morning...kissed and hugged my parents...
then go to school as usual...
friends greeting me happy birthday...haha...i'm like KING today...
haha...
li yen gave me the present at perhimpunan there...
after the long perhimpunan...our first period is bio...
then after i went into the lab...wenjie ask me to go out...
when i walk out...
i saw pei ying, huey chin, and wen jie...
i also know what they want to do...so i say wanna give me present oh..haha..
i know what is the present...a wallet..cause i request for it...
they gave me present then i say thank you...
but peiying gave me a handmade birthday card...
she said that they both made the card and wenjie also got write something on it...
*pei ying and huey chin made it together for 4 hours..then the rest pei ying brought home and make it...
that card really out of what i expect...
wow....
just like a sudden boost to me...
when i read the card...i tried not to cry...because peiying is watching at me and hoping me to feel touched and cry...
haha...but finally... i also cried...
i'll treasure it...
after a couple of minutes..
the one sat beside me...lai wah jie...gave me a present too....haha..and asked me open when i reached home...==
then peiying ask me to change my wallet on spot...
and i also open the present...its a shirt...SAVE THE FUTURE...
quite nice...i like it too...
then time for my class old trick...singing happy birthday song...
haha...the feel is so good....
haha...
after school...mum brought us too mc donald...
hehe...
ya....to me....
17th birthday is quite important...
cause i can listen L license...haha
and this might be the last chance for me to celebrate my birthday with my gangs of school friends...
i've to treasure what i owned now...
no matter got give me present or not..
no matter what kind of presents is it...
i still care of my FRIENDSHIP...
ya...thanks guys...
i want to thanks...
peiying,wenjie,hueychin,jennichow,puilan,laiwah,cheekheng,sookchin,
liyen,pooimun,cehteng,tzepei,erntheng,kailun...
and so on....and....pn cheah..pn chan km..cik lai..cik sudarshini...pn..pramindra too...sorry for not listed out...
and my cousins and friends who wish me on facebook...
haha...

30/10/09

haha...
just finish 'the farewell party' of bc club..
we all just like eating together...
and our juniors...
hmm.....
taking photos all the time....(with their gang only)..
seems like not having farewell with us...
haha....but nvm... we enjoy the smoky time there...
we keep on taking food to bbq or steamboat...
the bbq smoke keep on blowing towards everybody...
itchy de ah...it hurts too...
the funniest thing is we put too much margarine on the wire gauze....
then it burns...BURN the board... BURN the table...
then the worker pour water on the burning table...
a BIG hole at the center of the table...such a great surprise to us...
cool man...kailun say if ck had a late response...she would have a burnt bra...haha...
ck babe dun angry oo...
haha...
we enjoy our food and jokes...and doing funny and stupid stuffs....
just the word ENJOY...
emm....
i wanna thanks for everyone who 'work' for bc club this year...
i am not a good leader i know but i had try my best to do it...
sorry if i done anything wrong...
sorry if i make you scold by someone...
i hope that the coming generation will make our club better and better...
i love you bc club...
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heavy-sleeper...............

i FOUND that...
i really that kind of person who like to SLEEP...
just like the sims charateristics..
damn like sleeping...
usually i sleep at 10 and wake up at 5...
but if i sleep after 11...the next day i'll keep on yawn and sleep non-stop..
feeling tire and doing nothing...
if i am reading sejarah...
haha...
i can sleep in just 2 seconds....
sometimes i really envy light-sleeper..
they can just use longer time to study..play...
now spm coming luu~~
if i still keep on sleeping..
i'll DIE...
i really hope that i won't sleep so much...

-to coffee manufacturer... i deeply found that... it's can't give any freshness to our mental...it will only make me sleep more...

SPM coming luu~~

spm trial exam i did it badly...
i'm such a failure...
the two subjects that i so so so confident with suddenly give me a big 'drop'...
both also get B.. english and est...
what the.....
aiz....
nvm...from now on...
i will....
try to sleep for shorter time...
and keep on study study and study....
i don't have any great hope....
i just hope that all subject will get credit (include my worst sub- SEJARAH)..
for sure i hope to get A...
i want at least 4A...
but i hope to get 6A...better 8A....haha...
i must challenge myself for the best...

*wenjie... i promise to you...if the real spm chemistry come out with the carbon compound ques...i will get it all right... not like the trial... only got X mark...
*peiying...come on...you say we will 'pikat' the 8A...let's do it together...
*hueychin...jia you jia you...if you need any reference book...i'll borrow you de...
*see kailun.. you're the one who challenge me...haha... wait to see lah...won't be an easy mission for you...

AND to all SPM candidates..good luck and gambateh...

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my teacher always tell me that not to be regret of what you do...
but i always do so...
why can't i always think about what will happen next and have a good decision...
but thats no way to think about the past already...
i must berusaha...
i won't give up easily...
watch out..
ish....
but anyway.....
is there anything can make me energetic??
coffee won't be useful to me...
i would just feel more tired and sleepy...
tell me if anyone have any idea...